so i've noticed lately just how depressing deviantart can be.
you see all these amazing artists and you aspire to the last fiber of your being to one day be as good as them. Then you realize just how much work, time, and dedication that will take. Then you look at the art you have and say, "well how in the HELL is this gonna work." Then you have one of two choices: say screw it, give up and pursue something other than art... OR keep on trudging and remind yourself of how much you've improved and set small easy goals so that you always feel accomplished.

I'm trying very hard to follow the second option haha :/

Also.
I recently got a commission from my math teacher to draw her grandchildren. This will be my first paid commission and i'm FREAKING NERVOUS. i'm so paranoid and worried that i'm going to screw it up and she'll be like. meh this is terrible.

ARRRGGGGHH i hate pressure. i'm also horrible with artistic deadlines. i also almost just typed 'deadaliens'

anyway.

i'm finding more time to draw and i now have a list of fun things to draw and i as. i'm excited.
So far the list includes us as:
-Men (done)
-Pimps (done)
-Superheroes
-Dominatrix and Secretary
-Me in a motorcycle being bad-ass, her in a sidecar blowing bubbles / Me in a motorcycle being bad-ass, her peeking out from behind me pointing at something and wide innocent smile.
-Circus people. me as a lion tamer, her as a contortionist
-DRUNK (im so excited for this one :3)
-Flappers (20's)
-Mobsters with our man-selves behind us (20's)
-ghosts/spirits (inspired by Supernatural)
-Little girls. i.e. me ripping a barbie's head off, her shucking corn
-Her as Sam, me as Dean (from Supernatural)
-Her as Mello, me as Matt (from Deathnote)
-Steampunk Sky Pirates
-Her as Kaylee, me as River Tam (from Firefly)
-us acting like each other
-HIPPIES
-Hogwarts students..because why the hell not
-Mermaids? i like drawing them


so as you can see i have my work cut out for me. Would you guys prefer i draw these in pencil or digitally? or upload two versions of my favourite ones, digital and pencil?

SOoo i haven't uploaded anything in a while until today. i had this huuuuge build up of art on my desktop that i needed to upload.

I've been on a sort of art rampage recently, as in i'm trying to improve at turbo speed. i want to be at a level of awesome really quickly though, unfortunately, i know it takes time.

My plan to draw everyday failed miserably.
But today i drew my most realistic person ever! that was pretty cool.

Anyway. I'm still trying to find my niche in the art world, but till then i'll just keep practising!

YYYYAAAAAAAAY ART!

SOOOOOO it's summer and my great plan to reinvent myself is underway. Currently i have already started my art intensive of drawing everyday and trying to make it less crappy. OH and i will be redecorating my room.....right now it looks as though a hurricane barfed in it. And i think i have more books than anything else combined in my room and i can't put them ANYWHERE. I'm starting work on monday (ugh) and i will be doing tons of other stuff as well. Such as trying to design a threadless shirt design or type-tee with my sister to earn money for our east-coast road trip next summer.

ALSO
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NARUTO SPOILER ALERT 449
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KAKASHI'S NOT DEAD
FUCK yeaaaaaaaahhhh!!!!
naruto has officially made the impossible happen
he made the leader of akatsuki completely CHANGE his whooole goal around
because naruto decided to not kill him. because of a book.
i mean AWESOME, but WTF.
anyway. it's a cool chapter. made me very happy because kakashi sees his dad. a little DIP into kakashi's past. nice touch kishimoto. nice touch.
ANYWAY if you haven't read it, i would recommend it. seriously.

THATS IT

also if anyone has a good tutorial for expressions (chibi not realistic) that would be awesome

thanks!
KIRK OUT

sooooooooo
hi

my lack of creativity is going to gradually prove itself evident to you....wait for it.....BAM.

so i'm in ragtime, which is a musical set in like the early 1900s and its showing at my school, which if any of you go to it, you should come see it. SRSLY.

anyway, artwise i am in a painting class right now which is really cool because i've never really been much into painting, especially with oils. but it's really pushing the limit i've set for myself, so it's very fun. I've decided i like it. but i prefer pencil and photoshop.

i don't have much to rant about except my exhaustion from rehearsal and the horrible coughy sicky flemmy-ness i got from my 16 mile bike ride yesterday. i don't honestly know why i did it, i just did.
thus is the perfect example of my spontenuity. SPELLIGN DOSENT MATTRE!

the end. have a wonderful tomorrow.

what in the HELL was masashi kishimoto thinking? if you read naruto and are currently caught up to the latest chapter you would know what i'm talking about. i'll try not to spoil it.

so i went to megacon today for the first time cosplaying as Hinata shippuden from Naruto. it was friggin amazing etc. and i had a fantabulous time.

then i came home and read the latest manga chapter.
and guess. what. happened.

SPOILER









SHE DIED!!! PAIN KILLED HER~! right after she told naruto that she loved him. then he goes all berserk and goes right into the foxes chakra and he has like 6 tails. IF i didn't know any better i would say kishimoto is trying really hard to end the series.
i mean come ON!! he kills off kakashi (my favorite character DX) then goes off and kills hinata, my not so favorite character but i still admire her guts and plus i am really good at cosplaying her.
IM PISSED O_O

....but megacon was awesome. if any of you went, i hope you had a good time.